Moments-Alone on Christmas (stories of December)

I come from a large family, my nuclear family is close to 20 heads. So it is a bit ironic (or not) that I found myself alone at a time that meant all matters family! Chilled, silent and alone that's how I spent my 2020 Christmas.

Relax, I am not complaining...I loved every second of it. In that calm and quite I got time to reflect on a lot of things, looking at my fathers compound...every corner, including the one my sister is buried at, is a reason for saying thanks...see this beautiful compound, growing up, this was an impossibility! 

From a family full of girls who pursued education at a time when girl child education was deemed useless to a family of strong empowered women and man!  I might have been alone, but the amount of positive and grateful energy that surrounded me made my heart leap with joy. and in that moment...in the moment of silence I thought of the girl I was, the girl I am and by the grace of God,  the girl I want to be! This is one dedicated to all the girls trying to be amid all setbacks!

 

This one is for the girl who thinks her story has been forgotten.

The girl who feels left out, who cries herself to sleep every night wondering what she ever did wrong.

For the girl who  has been judged and condemned for being who she is, called arrogant because her pitch was a note higher than the rest, called rude because her smile has been marred by so much pain it comes out as a smirk. for the girl who battles it out alone, appearing strong on the outside but silently drowning in un foretold pain.

For the girl who has been constantly told to "think" and act like a normal person because the world cant accommodate her "crazy" for the girl who has been taught to believe nothing is desirable about her...a girl forced to live a mediocre life because that is what the society demands. 

A girl who has been forced to assume that only a man can give her worth...that without a man she will end up with 3 cats, miserable and seeking attention from the younger generation. 

A girl who has been pushed to show more skin, hide her brilliance behind a tone of make up and fake laughs so that she may fit in! 

for the girl raising that baby alone, judged by society for being too lose...yet all she did was love.

For the girl who just got heart broken again and feels like she doesn't deserve love.

For the girl. smiling through the pain!

The girl who quit her dream because she was told her tummy wasn't flat enough...The girl who has been called boring because she said no. For the girl who dares to be different, for the girl who keeps her head up even as tears sting her eyes threatening to burst out...for the girl who works those heels however much they sting her toes with an angelic gait and confident stare!

for the girl who trusts God! For she knows God never made a mistake "he looked at what he created and it was beautiful!" she knows she not only a trial and error...that greater is the one living inside of her than the one living in the world! So with all her might she seeks; first the kingdom, then his righteousness and waits for the second coming with deep conviction! 

For that girl who feels she's a lone wolf...you are not alone...I am that girl too...and believe me when I say, "he gives beauty for ashes, strength for fear, gladness for mourning and love unconditional, so cheer up...you are enough!!

 

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Happy new year!