PART OF YOUR HEART

I know how it feels to be rejected

Sidelined and ignored, love and not be loved back

I hate the number of nights I stayed up late in the name of love

Wasting time wondering whether he is thinking of me like I am

The numerous times I jumped at the slightest ring of my phone

Fingers crossed hoping it’s him

Saying I love you out of obligation, Rather than from…well, love

My wasted tears, haunting me days and night

My fake smile while inside am crushed

The insecurity the rejection made me feel

The anger that burns deep within my very being

Yea, I know how it feels to long for someone

To wish with everything possible that they will look your way

Even for just a nanosecond

The pain, not just emotional but physical

When you see them in the arms of another

To be told no, even before you ask

To have to look at the backs turned against you

Feeling like you need to change who you are

For a comment, any comment, if that’s what it takes to be noticed

To live rejected, tormented and hated every single waking day

Yes God, I know how it feels… I know how you feel

I know it can’t measure up

I have never given anything, let alone a son

But yes, I know how it feels

What’s worse, many times I have rejected you

Ignored you, refused to listen

When all you whispered was…I love you!

Now that I think of it, am glad I was rejected,

Only then was I able to know how you truly feel

And that’s all I needed, part of your heart

The part that says I love you even though you don’t

I love you no matter what, I love you, till the end of time!