PLEASE DON'T...

You may think differently about this... but for those who have lost a loved one, I know you can relate (you are not alone), if you haven't yet... prepare for this. 

This is not a pity plea!

                              

                                                       PLEASE DONT...

Please don't tell me to change my phones wall paper, it has got nothing to do with me not accepting that she is gone

Please don't say things like… don't you think you have mourned her a little bit too much… just so you know, its never too much

Don't tell me every end is a new beginning… because you are right, its the beginning of new memories without her, new days of wishing I could hear her voice one last time

Yea a new beginning of guilt because of the times I did not tell her I love you back

New days wishing I had taken every conversation seriously 

Beginning of moments that when her name is mention my heart skips a beat 

Beginning of days I would stare at her smiling face knowing too well I will never see it again

Beginning of days I wish I could hear her annoying laughter just one more time

Beginning of days I  miss her loud snoring, beginning of days I will never hear her call my name again… 

Beginning of days I would cry on end thinking about her... beginning of... well everything without her

Please just stop! Don't tell me you know how I feel, because you don't... we don't share a heart 

Don't try to divert my mind whenever I think of her, memories are all I have left of her

Don't bother to tell me she is in a better place… because I know you don't even believe that yourself

Don't tell me not to cry… for heaven sake don't! 

So you thinking bottling it all inside is best… better yet why do you assume every tear is sad? 

Have you ever thought that maybe I smile with every tear I cry...

Don't look at me with those eyes when you speak about death… its creepy

Don't tell me what to do… who made an expert?

In short... when it comes to her, and the memories I have of her… just let me be!