Dear Broken hearted,

Every body around you seem to be getting their big break, everywhere is dotted with happy contented smiles. You try to smile back, be happy for them, right? (I mean, it’s the Christian thing to do). So you put on that smile that merely goes beyond the lips hoping that no one notices the pain you are trying so much to concel. Sometime the smile turns out to be crucked and the laughter so guttural, thank heavens they are to happy to notice.

You’ve literally quoted and re-quoted every encouraging bible verse, reminding yourself every breaking dawn, I am more than a conqurer, you’ve done it all…scream at God, spoken gently, cried, begged…and you feel it’s the last stretch till you completely break down. You cant talk to anyone, to every one else, you have it all together and if you dare say you are not happy they would turn on you with daggers eyes and say… stop complaining.

More than once you’ve been called ungrateful for wishing for more in your life, your so called friends don’t get why you need a better job, a bigger house, that bachelors degree…or even  complete wardrobe make over…infact they call you materialistic.So you say to yourself, 'Surely is it so wrong to want more in life…?'

At this point, the last thing you want to hear ( being completely honest) is Gods timing is the best, you not only know that, you believe it! The problem is not you being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, its so clearly marked out (if you have faith, that is), the problem is the distance between you and that light. Walking the distance is not the problem either… I will never leave you nor forsake you…the problem is the people you meet on your way towards that light!

So lock them out! All of them, friends and all, every person pulling you down, lock them out! Don’t get me wrong, am not saying you don’t need people… far from it. You need people, people who will help you keep your fire burning, people who won't sound condenceding  every time they speak,people who believe in your dreams no matter how unrealistic they sound, people who will not only tell you your mistake but also how to correct it, people who wont think you are weak when you can't hold your tears back… more importantly you need God!

You probably already know this but it won't cost a thing to repeat it anyhow, God is not yet done with you. However bleak this chapter is, the next chapter is always bigger and better. You are not alone, someone else somewhere is also going through. For even on the darkest night the sky is still blue and not every smile means joy.

So keep that smile however crucked it is, because at your weakest point, God is strongest, his hands are always ready to scope you up when you fall, he is there even when you don’t feel him, he will not let you be tested beyond what you can handle, he is your ever present friend…now and always.

Note: Reading the beautiful talented Heather Lindsey last post, and am soo excited that we are kind of like speaking the same thing....Read it here.